The Meaning of Life

My colleague wanted me to touch on this topic in my blog. I am beginning to see a trend in the topics favored by readers. It seems like people are DISTRESSED because they are hungry to find the meaning of life, purposes or happiness. Frankly speaking, no matter how I write or what I write is not going to help you to a very large extent. It can only inspire you for a moment. So in that spur of the moment, you may feel 'Oh yes! Right! The write is SUD! I'm gonna be just that!' Unfortunately, this dies down faster than the wind blowing off a candle flame. Because what people told you is not internalised in you.

To find out the meaning of your own life, first thing first, you need to find a quiet place to sort out your thoughts. Other people's definition of 'Meaningful Life' is different from yours. The reason why you are searching for meaning is because at present, your mind is in a whirlwind. For a moment, you want to settle down, for the next, you realise your bf is not The One, then the next, you find that no guys can ever replace your bf. This inner struggle of thoughts left you in confusion. And when you are in confusion, many silly ideas invade into your brain easily. You will keep saying 'Aiya, Bu Zi Dao La, Aiya dunno la'.

Acually you know the answer, but it is just that this solution is not PERFECT. Maybe you love this guy, but he does not shower you with love like you did for him. You are confused, you are filled with self-doubts. But what is the root of the problem? Lack of communication. Perhaps you can sit down and ask him "Is there anythg wrong with our r/s?" Tell him your doubts and confusion. Meanwhile, hear him out too. Perhaps what you did for him is suffocating him. You feel this is good for him but does he feel likewise too?

Actually I realise I may be a joke in the eyes of God. I am not a love expert as I don't have a lot of experiences. I am only an 'amatuer'. And whenever my friends met with serious relationship problems, they ask me. I am neither a person with ample life experiences, I am only a 25-year old girl with some sense and sensibility, not like some old grannies with wrinkles that can form the map of the world. And whenever my friends met with setbacks in life, they ask me what to do. I don't think what runs through my mind is in anyway superior to theirs. They are not morons, surely they must have thought of what I think too. So I realize that all my friends need is a listening ear, and some advices to ascertain their thoughts and decisions. Or rather, have a friend 'inside' their problem so they won't feel alone.

Sometimes I was thinking, I can't even take care of myself and yet I am counselling and advising others on their circumstances. This is indeed a mockery. I am like half a bucket of shit hanging in the mid air, alright?! I may write until so steady, like an expert but I am also LUAN in my life. So I tell you to write, read and say is very easy. Who doesn't know what the protocol of life is?

I seriously do not know what is the meaning of life. I just know that I want to be happy. So I want to do all the things in the world that will make me happy. I want to stay around the people who make me happy. I want to have a positive mind that will make me happy. I want to laugh and joke to make myself happy. I want to sing to make myself happy. I want to be healthy to make myself happy. I want to pray to make myself happy. I want the people around me to be happy so I will be happy.