Random events, thoughts and feelings..

Got a call from Iris in LA to check on my sq*** case. That was thoughtful of her. She is in her job proper now, flying everywhere. She is kinda unhappy abt the politics and interpersonal relations in this long haul flight. But her unhappiness will end after this journey, till the next round she met with this bunch of bitches. Jia You!! As regard to my sq*** case, the interview was not a nasty one, a mere questions and answers session. But I don't know what is installed for me yet as mgmt gotta review it. Mary was kind to sms me certain thgs to look out for and Jo also gave me some pointers. But before the interview, I called Jo in Macau. I need to calm myself down seriously and I guess she was the best person at that point in time. Anyway I stayed calm and resolute during the process and I have done the best already. I leave everythg to GOD. You know what? Alot of ppl who knew abt my case prayed for me and to know that so many ppl were doing that puts my mind to rest. After that so many ppl asked abt my case really touches me too. So encouraging when I am in this dire straits. Ok enough abt this stupid, idiotic, sickening, disgusting piece of shit. Seriously, trouble attracts trouble.

Cher has resigned, she has been bearing with it for the past year. She has broken down several times this year, esp recent months. I am all supportive of her decision. I think that if you can cry so many times within this past 1 yr, and everything being constant again, you are bound to cry for the many days, mths to come too. Why not end the suffering once and for all? There are still some big 3 out there.

Speaking abt this, what abt me? Leave or stay? I am stagnant, I am tired, I am frustrated. Is this a passe or an ending? Will the dark clouds clear by themselves after my break? I'll be taking a month break gg to Macau and Hong Kong. I hope to take this time to sort out my thoughts and thinking. I need a reassessment of my strength and capabilities. I need revelation.

Now the only thing I am looking forward to is my Hong Kong trip. I'll be spending X'mas there. This is the most exciting event this year. I'll be gg with Genie again. Plus YL and Sorina. We are planning to go disneyland, pubs in Lan Kwek Fong, shopping and exciting places I supposed.

My best friend's wedding. Lawrence is getting married on 3rd Dec. My very first wedding invitation from a really close friend. I think I will be damn touched that day. My best friend since Sec 1. My everythg friend in Sec and my family friend, shared my ups and downs. Ever since, we are in the working work, we drifted apart. No more late hours talk. But I am sure our friendship ties will continue until the end. There sure is plain platonic friendship b/w guys and gers I swear.

The worst thing that can happen to a person is self-doubt. Mind is in a mess, feeling lonely at times to weather everythg. Certain things are easy to share with friends but difficult to mend and resolve together. I think my mind is too complex, complicated and messy. Whenever I met with setbacks, I will think abt the past, this is darn wrong! Cannot. I must bace up! Jia You! Jia You! Jia You! Tomorrow will be better. I must persevere. Zhou Huijuan, you can make a difference! You will always be special!