I can't wait..

I really really hell of a lot dun like to wait. I guess 9/10 of my life is spent on Waiting! Queue up for the freaking AXS machine took 1/2hr. S'poreans really got alot of bills to pay. Called up Citibank hotline took 1/2hr, imagine it was worse-off to call the platinum hotline than the normal one! Waited 1/2hr to wait for the freaking bus 89! Sometimes come to think of it, it is not that I like to take cab or I'm a spoilt brat but the fact is that time spent on waiting for bus really drives me up the wall. Coz I would be cursing and swearing in my heart. The fact is I don't wana curse a bus! So to avoid all unneccesary, sinful, scornful, distastefulness in me, I take cab. You think I like to take cab? It costs me $20 to travel to and fro Bt. Merah! But no choice. Anyway I don't have to travel there anymore. And when the person in front of me walked so slowly, I bet I can 'TSK' like nobody's business. I feel like asking her to freaking walk faster, she walked down the bus aisle like a church aisle! But I didn't wana undermine her human rights so I didn't 'TSK' her la! But honestly, is there a problem with me? Am I utterly impatient? And yesterday when the trainer talked so slowly, I got frustrated as well. And she liked to REPEAT! Gosh! The very first day in training, I bet I dozed off at least 5 times. I really TRIED to open my eyes BIG already but it was worse as the lids dipped even faster. My concentration and attention spans are deterioriating. Not a gd sign. I think I could slip into a slumber, if not for my subconscious fear of embarrassment. But why the hell must they present corporate culture that kinda thingy!?! Today was better, drank coffee. The loan trainer was good as well, very detailed, learnt new HL stuff. Finally got the whole picture and not merely smoke through like last time haa. Anyway I still cannot come to terms with the one-mth training period! Damn long! And I must LIE LOW! My colleagues are so far ok, made a few friends. But didn't talk much with them coz I must LIE LOW. Haaa..