very simply put, i think my entire world is just rubbish.. akin to a cockroach in a dustbin. "don't freaking throw nonsense right at my face!!" damn it! damn! ... damn! things just go wrong uncontrollably. i bet some demons are really, really manipulating my life happily right now making me more dead than alive. utterly absurb! totally laughable! outrageous! preposterous! nb.