End of training, start of work..

Today I officially started work and I got menses cramp. So 'zun' as 'it' has been stucked for more than a mth, and I have to get it today, my tummy pains like anythg. I had been displaying half a day of sulking, irritated, cramped, black face. Champion liao! Maybe will gana blacklisted?! However, I tell you, first impression is always wrong! Starting from poly, SIM, 1st or 2nd job, I always gave the wrong first impression to others :) Yesterday, at my farewell KTV session with my DBS training batch, they commented abt when they first saw me, some of the comments were: Dao, sleepy, black face, ah lian, play punk, hao lian... wah seh! So much for all these manz!

Anyway today first day back into sales, what can I say? Ermm.. abit distant. Needs some practice to get back to track. Mixed feelings again. Just so many more new things to learn. Feels that time is of the essence. Does not like to go ard asking ppl. Does not like to depend on colleagues. Does not like the feeling of 'picking up' stage. Does not like the feeling of at a loss to the systs and procedures. Wants to learn everythg within the shortest time.

Anyway I have a goal I have to attain. It has been promised, and I have to do it, otherwise it defeats all purpose of me coming over. The stress is here. The show has started. Good or bad, awaiting to be seen. GBM! No scared, no scared!