Change your thinking..Change your life...

This phrase was said to me by my ex-CSO who is ever so kind and sweet to catch up with me. It's always nice and rewarding to hear from her as she always exudes an aura of positiveness and hope. She is one person who will call me and spend over 2hrs on the line to chit chat and counsel me. Imagine who will spend this amt of time amid all busy schedules and tireness for somethg none of her biz and yet lend a listening ear?? She is also one of my friends who patiently exposed me to GOD. Kinda envy her coz of her spiritual faith and her unselfish personality. Because of these, I always feel that she can talk sense into me. She is solid, got substance! Sud!

Anyway I just learnt a new Hokkien idiom. This is damn funny, contributed by my HLS - ever so crappy. I was telling him about my suay-ness, and he suddenly shoot out this phrase. 'Wa Ka Li Gong, Lang Suay Hor, Qi Jiao Bien Gong Kuay' Translated: 'I tell you, when one person is suay hor, the bird you rear will even become a rooster'! FUNNIE OR NOT?! But when I told my sisters, they are speechless and expressionless, and gave me an irritated look. They said they can't link a bird with a rooster. Kaoz, no sense of humour!

Ok, 7 days countdown to Dec 2006.

1-Yr Anniversary to Fortune-Telling..

It's been a year since the last time I went fortune-telling. I had told myself not to go to such places again BUT Cher 'rekindled' an old interest. She had consulted a fortune-teller abt her career and love life. She paid just $3, somewhere near Fu Lu Shor Bldg. The lady had told her she needs to leave her workplace ASAP! Or change dept, coz she is sucking big time now and is going to continue sucking. However, she needs to find a job first before resigning coz she will have a hard time finding new job! Wow!! Hey, this sure arouses my interest coz I am 'lost'! I need to know if change job will be gd or totally leave this industry, or job nature (sales), or just stick on. I really, really, really need advices. Can somebody help? I know Iris forbids me doing this. I, myself, know also. So I will refrain ok? The very last experience I had fortune-telling was lousy, no reminders of that pls!

That lady also said Cher will have a hard time finding her true love. I hope this will never never never hold true for her! She needs love. Everyone needs love! Sharon also needs love :P Na also needs love :P keke And me too!!

Random events, thoughts and feelings..

Got a call from Iris in LA to check on my sq*** case. That was thoughtful of her. She is in her job proper now, flying everywhere. She is kinda unhappy abt the politics and interpersonal relations in this long haul flight. But her unhappiness will end after this journey, till the next round she met with this bunch of bitches. Jia You!! As regard to my sq*** case, the interview was not a nasty one, a mere questions and answers session. But I don't know what is installed for me yet as mgmt gotta review it. Mary was kind to sms me certain thgs to look out for and Jo also gave me some pointers. But before the interview, I called Jo in Macau. I need to calm myself down seriously and I guess she was the best person at that point in time. Anyway I stayed calm and resolute during the process and I have done the best already. I leave everythg to GOD. You know what? Alot of ppl who knew abt my case prayed for me and to know that so many ppl were doing that puts my mind to rest. After that so many ppl asked abt my case really touches me too. So encouraging when I am in this dire straits. Ok enough abt this stupid, idiotic, sickening, disgusting piece of shit. Seriously, trouble attracts trouble.

Cher has resigned, she has been bearing with it for the past year. She has broken down several times this year, esp recent months. I am all supportive of her decision. I think that if you can cry so many times within this past 1 yr, and everything being constant again, you are bound to cry for the many days, mths to come too. Why not end the suffering once and for all? There are still some big 3 out there.

Speaking abt this, what abt me? Leave or stay? I am stagnant, I am tired, I am frustrated. Is this a passe or an ending? Will the dark clouds clear by themselves after my break? I'll be taking a month break gg to Macau and Hong Kong. I hope to take this time to sort out my thoughts and thinking. I need a reassessment of my strength and capabilities. I need revelation.

Now the only thing I am looking forward to is my Hong Kong trip. I'll be spending X'mas there. This is the most exciting event this year. I'll be gg with Genie again. Plus YL and Sorina. We are planning to go disneyland, pubs in Lan Kwek Fong, shopping and exciting places I supposed.

My best friend's wedding. Lawrence is getting married on 3rd Dec. My very first wedding invitation from a really close friend. I think I will be damn touched that day. My best friend since Sec 1. My everythg friend in Sec and my family friend, shared my ups and downs. Ever since, we are in the working work, we drifted apart. No more late hours talk. But I am sure our friendship ties will continue until the end. There sure is plain platonic friendship b/w guys and gers I swear.

The worst thing that can happen to a person is self-doubt. Mind is in a mess, feeling lonely at times to weather everythg. Certain things are easy to share with friends but difficult to mend and resolve together. I think my mind is too complex, complicated and messy. Whenever I met with setbacks, I will think abt the past, this is darn wrong! Cannot. I must bace up! Jia You! Jia You! Jia You! Tomorrow will be better. I must persevere. Zhou Huijuan, you can make a difference! You will always be special!

Today is a SALA day..

I am damn freaking restless now. I can't operate, I am like in a TV box where someone has just pressed 'Slow Motion' on the remote control. Feeling disgustingly nauseous also. I am blogging to keep myself awake. Head is heavy. Feeling all the veins, blood vessels, whatever are topsy turvy inside the brain. Coupled with my newly developed phobia of crazy cx coming in to smear me, i think that's it for me. I hope this is a mere hangover and not some sort of depression acting up. My ex-colleague, James, went to see GP coz he was sick. The doc told him all his signs constitute to the making of depression. Haha. Some of them were: serious headache, rapid fast heartbeat, feeling nauseous, lethargic.. amusing.. And alot of bankers have this problem ha~~

Anyway today is a SaLA day manz! Tomorrow will be gd, I'm sure :)

Gonna take cab hm now.

I like M.O.S

After all the unlucky events on Sat afternoon, besides meeting Jas which I thought was lucky haha sweet?, I went MOS find Michele, Joyce, Jissi, and Ben. As usual they were late. Can't you ppl surprise me for once??! Anyway, was Michele's last day of exams so bo bien. But Michele, where is ROS? keke :P It was comical that whatever drink Michele wana order, the waiter didn't know. Lychee liquor 7-up, bombay sapphire shots (cool drink) haha I also don't know but I'm not waitress. So head down to dance floor after a couple of shots, they thought they could get me drunk after tequila pop but no way manz! I am CHIU CHIU leh. Siao! haha Take care of youself manz, Michele and Joyce! Joyce was sei after the first shot, Michele spoke Japanese again, so?? haha

It was an enjoyable night, haven't chiong for so long liao. Like gg back to the old days. Anyway took some pix in the ladies where Michele promised it will be more flattering :P

After 3am, we head down to TCC. Michele suggested that! Food=Michele=Hungry!


A hungry ger is a mad ger..


First one to eat...


Kudos to this gentleman here.. I bet u reached hm at 5am! Thanks Bro!

Can't be any blurrer already..

Yes, stardard opening line "I haven't been blogging for 2 weeks.." so here I am. I guess I am too traumatised by the series of events that have happened starting Nov be it work, family or personal. Sigh.. so tomorrow is the big day i.e. called up to la kopi and get interrogated. Pray for me ya.

Speaking about me being blur. I think I have had enough. Sat was sure an unlucky day for me ok?! After work at 1.30pm, I happily knocked off to meet Jas at Parkway so I took bus 197, meeting her at 2.30pm. I tell you I seriously seriously saw the bus 197 so I board it and slept. 30min later I woke up I found myself at Paya Lebar, ok normal. BUT as the bus went on, I saw Hougang! This bus is not supposed to land up in Hougang!!! I saw the bus number plate and saw 147! Shit. To make matters worse, it was pouring! Real downpour ok! I swear was the heaviest rain in the past 2mth. Then I got off, I couldn't hail a cab for 20min then I called cab. SUX! I was wet, messy, FITE, and hungry, and shivering. Argh! I reached parkway at 3.30pm. Poor Jas. Poor me.

So to find a sense of existence and belonging to this world that seems trying to make a fool of me, I SHOP. I spent alot. I indulged. I don't care. After that, I m happy, look below for evidences :P

I Love Christmas Rose

The Legend of the Christmas Rose speaks of a young girl named Madelon who wanted to come worship the Christ Child. Seeing the gold, frankincense and myrrh brought by others who were drawn to the humble birthplace, she despaired that she had no gift to bring, for Madelon was poor indeed.

In vain she searched the countryside for a flower that she might bring, but the winter had been cold and harsh – and there were no flowers to be found. Saddened, the girl began to weep. An angel passing over her stopped to provide comfort and smote the ground that was wet from her tears. There did spring a beautiful bush that bloomed of white roses.

"Nor myrrh, nor frankincense, nor gold," said the angel, "is offering more meet for the Christ Child than these pure Christmas Roses." And thus young Madelon went her way and worshipped the Prince of Peace, bearing the gift of her heart and tears.

The Legend of the Christmas Rose has some foundation in this 15th Century poem:

A Rose has sprung from a tender root,
From Jesus, as those of old have sung,
And it bore a flower,
In the middle of a cold winter,

When half spent was the night.
Isaiah foretold it, the Rose I have in mind;
Is Mary the pure, the little flower has brought us.
From God's eternal wisdom, she bore a child,
And remained pure.

The Flower, so small, whose sweet fragrance fills the air,
Dispels with glorious splendor the darkness everywhere;
True man and truer God, helps us out of all sorrows,
Saves from sin and death.

Oh Jesus, until we leave this misery,
Let your help guide us into joy,
In Your Father's Kingdom, where we eternally praise You.
Oh God, allow us this.

Translated from the early 15th century German poem "Es ist ein Ros' Entsprungen." Author unknown.