End of training, start of work..

Today I officially started work and I got menses cramp. So 'zun' as 'it' has been stucked for more than a mth, and I have to get it today, my tummy pains like anythg. I had been displaying half a day of sulking, irritated, cramped, black face. Champion liao! Maybe will gana blacklisted?! However, I tell you, first impression is always wrong! Starting from poly, SIM, 1st or 2nd job, I always gave the wrong first impression to others :) Yesterday, at my farewell KTV session with my DBS training batch, they commented abt when they first saw me, some of the comments were: Dao, sleepy, black face, ah lian, play punk, hao lian... wah seh! So much for all these manz!

Anyway today first day back into sales, what can I say? Ermm.. abit distant. Needs some practice to get back to track. Mixed feelings again. Just so many more new things to learn. Feels that time is of the essence. Does not like to go ard asking ppl. Does not like to depend on colleagues. Does not like the feeling of 'picking up' stage. Does not like the feeling of at a loss to the systs and procedures. Wants to learn everythg within the shortest time.

Anyway I have a goal I have to attain. It has been promised, and I have to do it, otherwise it defeats all purpose of me coming over. The stress is here. The show has started. Good or bad, awaiting to be seen. GBM! No scared, no scared!

Thinning hair...

This is very worrying.. My hair is getting lesser and lesser. Seriously, I can feel my scalp very 'naked'! I don't know why? I don't wana see myself gg to Yunan or Beijing 101. So pathetic!! Imagine my head is so BIG and my hair so little. Try think of rambutan?? Yes, that's gonna b me. Shld I try brandy over my scalp? Argh! **Too frustrated to write anymore already..** :(

One more thing, my colleague said I am a 'Pui Cai'! Worse ~ Double Blow! Gd bye! Though he said he's only joking - Grr!

Everythg abt my training...

The most shocking thg abt my training is - I keep failing tests! Trust me! They are products that I have sold 'N' times in UOB and yet I can fail them! I scored less than 75% - the passing line.

Structured Deposit Product Test - Failed! 11/15 (Only Failure)
Insurance Endownment Product Test - Failed! 6/12
Insurance Whole Life Product Test - Failed! 11/15

Shameful? Yes, indeed I am! My course mgr told me...I have broken the record for SD test! For the past 3 yrs, there hadn't been any failure at all. Ain't I great? haha. My batch mates would sure thought of me as a LOSER! But who cares manz! My admin lady was very sweet though, coz I am the only failure in class and she sort of afraid will paiseh me, so she sms-ed me to go to her rm to inform me abt the re-test. Haha. She didn't want to announce in class no matter how the class asked her. But I had expected it already. I still bad-mouth her sometimes. Im lousy! Anyway, is alright coz I am not vying for the Best Trainee Award. I just want to 'ping ping an an' spend this one month and chop chop go to br. Rem my philosophy? Yes, lie low! Sigh...I kinda miss doing sales. The training really worn me out, I am just so tired everyday aft training. What a contrast to when I was a PB, can play MJ into the very night 3,4am++ Now I cannot. WHY???

Yesterday when all my cliques failed the UT test except me, they still complained I buay steady never joined their boat! Kaoz! Today I am alone leh! Then where are u guys????? So afterall we'll still be taking re-tests together! Happy?! HAHA.

Next week still gotta do role-play (VIDEPTAPED) this one cannot fail one! Argh! Must do option 1 (UOB guys, u all shld know what I mean!) using their syst. So difficult leh! Today I did a trial run, I almost vomitted! Took 1 damn hour! I never ever did option 1 in UOB before!

There is going to be a skit put up by us guys tomorrow. I am playing the BM. Alright lah no issue, chop chop 20min skit. Just say a few words then disappear liao haha. It is quite fun though. After the skit, there's gg to be a mini-celebration with booze and all that. But I still gotta take my retest haha.

My trainee batch does consist of ppl with interesting characters I have never come across before. Really - different places, different experiences. There are really ALL SORTS of personalities in the world. haaa. Some real, some fake, some disgusting, some nice, some attractive, some cute, some proud, some cannot-make-it, some waiting to be found out, some waiting to be enemies with, some waiting to be gd frens with, what have u....manz! All awaiting to be seen.....;P

Stories of People...

It is kinda amazing how miracles work in ppls' lives. I specially adapted an interpretation of the word - 'miracle' with reference from dictionary.com: "An event that appears inexplicable by the laws of nature and so is held to be supernatural in origin or an act of God". Let me share some stories of people I know or stories I heard of with you guys..

Renee was a superstitious girl. Like most chinese girls who grew up in a traditional family, she was accustomed to idols praying, worshipping and their rituals. She found solace in them. She very much liked to have her future told and fortunes revealed by such avenues. Those were such staunch beliefs she had once held on to. Miracles work in such a way that one day she had enough of all these that she totally renounced them all and seek His Kingdom. Time spells the difference between real and unreal, truth and superficiality. It's only when one had experienced the false that one day when he/she came across the truth, he/she treasures the good of it. The difference between a straight line and a crooked one is a ruler. Well, thanks to Renee's Aunt Mary I supposed. People cross your paths for reasons.

Faith has three family members just like the old Renee. Backgrounds are the same. Faith never impose her religion thinking on them for fear of creating a repercussion. Faith knows what works on them and what doesn't. Renee's change encourages Faith a lot that one day, in God's time, something amazing like this will happen to her siblings. Afterall, everythg happens in His time and not in ours.

Kristen is a nice girl. Towards friends that she trusts, she gives it all. Everythg in her life has smoothened so far, she has grown well in the name of God. Except for one thing that she often stumbles upon - her love life. This is like a curse she is always entwined in. One day, she will go for deliverance. Recently, Kristen was chatting with a friend who commented that since she is living by God's grace, it also means that she is living in lawlessness. Kristen's blood boiled to the max, but has compromised with the fact that - Empty vessels make the most noise, and ignorance kills a stupid person. Deep in Kristen's heart, she felt sorry for this person though. Yucks! What stupidity. If people live by law, then is there a need for God? Just let every person in the world hold the book of law everywhere they go and persecute whoever breach them. That will be an easy task. And the whole world will be condemned. Thereafter, every action that people make will be out of fear and not out of love anymore. What sadness. Listen Bitch: It is through grace that people are living in good, coz people are grateful to the grace, that they want to do good to honour the grace they have. This comes from the heart, not out of fear.

Kathleen has a super gd friend, Justin. When they were both 13 years old, Justin had already shared God with her. Kathleen converted and backslided, this and that. Justin lent a book on Alpha course to Kathleen. 12 years later, Kathleen discovered this book is still in her house during a spring cleaning! She took it out and read it, but now in a different light. She very much wanted to join and see its power but always thought this is only available in London, since this book was from there. Few months back, Elizabeth sms Kathleen if she is interested in a course - Alpha course - organised by her boss. Kathleen was shocked and overjoyed. Wow.

Recently, Helene had a revelation. One night before she fell asleep, she thought back of her life. Along the way in her life, she always has questions, hopes, needs, or wants. Some she got it, some she didn't. She reflected and realized that some of her 'hope to have' when she was maybe 10 years old, she is having it NOW. Some of her questions posed when she was 14 years old, she has the answers revealed NOW. Some of her 'want to see' when she was 16 years old, she saw it when she was 20 years old. Some of her fears she had when she was 15 years old, she had went through and passed it when she was 23 years old. And some of her 'hope to recover' when she was 23 years old, she is experiencing it NOW too. Wow. Wow. Wow. Happy for her, be it good or bad, she has continued the show well.

Alright, that's all folks. Til I have more stories to share again =)

Counting down day by day..

I'm back to when I was an OL. Looking forward to Friday everyday, and dreading Sunday as the following day is a blue Monday! Hated Mon and Tue esp! Anyway TGIF! I am counting down my training days, hope it's gonna end asap. Imagine I'm sitting through the same training I had 2 yrs ago. There's no exemption at all... money laundering exercise, chequeing, syst application, compliance, sales process..my god! As a PB, there's no difference with anyday of the week coz basically everyday is own self, own time, own target - just do sales and serve cx. And be in the br by 9.30 the next day. In fact, it is scary that the days passed by so quickly, and without knowing, it's month-end! And gotta panic for any lack in target, and start wishing the mth would be longer! Then a new mth starts again. Machiam like marathon - a most long run! But gotten used to it already.

New discovery - I have mastered several things during training. I can sleep in all circumstances. Morning (45min) journey to Raffles Plc, morning and afternoon at least dozed off 3 times!! Journey home (45min again) sleep! I can open my eyes to sleep too. My brain/mind goes into nirvana whenever the trainer starts her lessons. So when will I have enlightenment? haaaa :P

I can also master the art of silence. Cool. Maybe I'm introverted by nature. I could speak less than 10 statements during the 1st 3 days of training. Basically, I just stoned, read newspapers, sms, and slept. I bet my colleagues will deem me as super dao => But nw cannot liao, started to talk more already esp these 2 days! Totally disregarded the trainer, and just talked with my neighbour! Her voice is so loud some more! Thus, me gana MARKED again!! But heck lah, is more entertaining this way. Somemore copy and compare test answers like nobody's biz hahahaaa. Finished liao still go around help ppl keke! So sud!

So far the training grp still alright, friendly ppl. Made several new friends. But guess the mentality and feeling are different from when I was a TPB 2 yrs back. Didn't really mingle with them. Unlike TPB days, everyday was a BALA day! haaa.

Well, the first time is always the sweetest =)

A Leopard never changes its Spots!

Yes, the leopard is me though I am often referred to as a PIG - Ah Pui! Sigh! Alright, here it goes - I have a serious problem - Chronic perpetual undesirable impunctuality behaviour! I am supposed to be a newbie and yet I am ALWAYS late! The only times I was not late were when the trainer was later! I understand and recognise this issue has already surfaced for the longest time, since I was in Secondary Sch! This is bad & I am not encouraging this kinda behaviour. I guess my class 'nanny' is fed-up with me, and my report card will sure highlight this out. BUT SERIOUSLY, DO I CARE abt the stupid training report card????!!!!!! He always uses the report card thingy to threaten us. What heck?! Ok, everyday I am trying to be early already (ok, start with being ON TIME first, not early!) but each and everyday I failed! I guess is fate! Wahaha! Anyway the most impt qn is 'how long was I late?' - C'mon is only 15min!!!! But D*S treats this as a big deal leh!! Give me a break :/

I can't wait..

I really really hell of a lot dun like to wait. I guess 9/10 of my life is spent on Waiting! Queue up for the freaking AXS machine took 1/2hr. S'poreans really got alot of bills to pay. Called up Citibank hotline took 1/2hr, imagine it was worse-off to call the platinum hotline than the normal one! Waited 1/2hr to wait for the freaking bus 89! Sometimes come to think of it, it is not that I like to take cab or I'm a spoilt brat but the fact is that time spent on waiting for bus really drives me up the wall. Coz I would be cursing and swearing in my heart. The fact is I don't wana curse a bus! So to avoid all unneccesary, sinful, scornful, distastefulness in me, I take cab. You think I like to take cab? It costs me $20 to travel to and fro Bt. Merah! But no choice. Anyway I don't have to travel there anymore. And when the person in front of me walked so slowly, I bet I can 'TSK' like nobody's business. I feel like asking her to freaking walk faster, she walked down the bus aisle like a church aisle! But I didn't wana undermine her human rights so I didn't 'TSK' her la! But honestly, is there a problem with me? Am I utterly impatient? And yesterday when the trainer talked so slowly, I got frustrated as well. And she liked to REPEAT! Gosh! The very first day in training, I bet I dozed off at least 5 times. I really TRIED to open my eyes BIG already but it was worse as the lids dipped even faster. My concentration and attention spans are deterioriating. Not a gd sign. I think I could slip into a slumber, if not for my subconscious fear of embarrassment. But why the hell must they present corporate culture that kinda thingy!?! Today was better, drank coffee. The loan trainer was good as well, very detailed, learnt new HL stuff. Finally got the whole picture and not merely smoke through like last time haa. Anyway I still cannot come to terms with the one-mth training period! Damn long! And I must LIE LOW! My colleagues are so far ok, made a few friends. But didn't talk much with them coz I must LIE LOW. Haaa..