just a qn guys.. are there certain parts in singapore that are warmer than the rest? goodness gracious. I seriously seriously think so! im posted at bedok this whole week as the br is short-handed and there u go! this bedok is horrendously hot and humid. im like literally placed in an oven. everywhere I go, the sun follows me. hell. like a stalker!!! there really is a difference i bet. as soon as im back in raffles plc, the air is so different. at least the place is windy. the sun is all the same isn't it but I don't feel crazy sweating away or DIRTY. in bedok, i feel myself covered with dirt as soon as i stepped out of the br. damn it. grrrr....eee.....yucks...

honestly, just something i felt ever since I started doing SL. i think everyone (oh well, majority) will try his/her luck to take advantage of anybody if the situation allows, and by this i mean it includes friends as well. hw shld I begin? sadly, it is becoming like if a person helps u (gives u smthg), naturally, he/she EXPECTS something in return. it is not solely based on 'help' sake anymore. yes, i agree, it can become a win-win situation i.e. both of us get somethg out of it (no harm done) however the very thought that this person even asks for something in return irks me. so don't say 'help' anymore or 'recommend out of goodwill' blah blah, as this seems to me like more of a business deal alright. anyway, anyhow ppl really do jump ship faster than i cook instant porridge. period. somehow when someone more than a client did somethg not very positive and nice to me, one does not help but feel disgusted. i did what i shld do, i put in efforts which are obviously categorised into 'tangible' and 'intangible' which obviously to a mercenary like he/she will only see the former. C'mon!! don't ever discount me like that. It's so degrading and darn not cool at all. it's even sneaky.

right now, im even embarrassed by my personal feelings coz in every case, i should not assume. yes, im disappointed, at the same time, I'd better jolly well suck it up and move on. i know. I shouldn't think that i deserve certain treatment or certain attitude. ok, i just hv to learn. i bet i have contributed a fair bit in disappointing my friends and family too.