i enjoy service so much. the msg seems customised for me. isn't it amazing? almost quite immediately.

needa enjoy every single day not working - just 1 more week to go. did i mention time flies? need i?? knn. guess what i have been watching now? AMERICA'S NEXT TOP MODEL and PROJECT RUNWAY. well, old habits die hard.. and why shld i even feel guilty abt it?? sometimes over-analytic is detrimental. self-condemnation is evil. ;P

i needn't go for training later, was still struggling over it, when my colleague called and said since im on block leave, im excused! gd lord.

i was just thinking perhaps the world is indeed a breeding ground for evil and i gather ppl (you and i included) are just insecure creatures that seriously need a saviour. whilst watching ANTM, i saw the girls go there for a dream - to be america's next top model. pure, simple intention. as times go by, when each and everyone starts to reveal their strengths and weaknesses, competition arises. along with it comes bitching and backstabbing. you know sometimes, those girls can be on friendly terms but when interviewed, they still criticise one another. just to prove a point across, 'im better'. then, suddenly when some girls broke down or sick, same girls will offer their concerns again. it doesn't help when the judges asked them in front of all who should b ousted from the competition and we start to see the girls shocked in disbelief when they were pointed out. some girls were really reluctant to pin-point but they have to abide by the rules of the game because they chose to be in that playing field. some seriously couldn't take the stress. then judges comment, the real modeling world is 10 times worse and that is going to be their environment constantly. then we start hearing comments 'i came for my dream not friendship'. true but harsh. delusion or reality? i guess the stakes are too great. you know the odds, don't you? - ANTM versus conscience (too heavy a word, maybe). tangible versus intangible. the choice is obvious.