Can faith make a difference?

There're a lot things that I just wish I can help or make a positive difference. There're also a lot of thgs that are beyond my control or rather out of my limits. It's heartbreaking. I qn God but what if He's trying to let me see that we, as human beings, indeed have limitations - but why aren't YOU helping..?

Faith was at Old Airport Rd market for dinner just now. I won't say that was a coincidence - Faith saw baby as she was leaving. It has been 4 yrs, baby has grown so tall; same height as Faith, who was wearing heels. She is 13 yrs old now. Faith was in Sec 2 when she first arrived. She was a beautiful toddler; big eyes, rosy cheeks - just like anyone of you all's babies. Sadly, baby does not have a warm, happy family which resulted in her plight today. Faith saw a dirty looking, overweight, 'lost' girl roaming the market. When Faith looked into baby's eyes, all she saw was fear and nothingness. That hurts. It was about 10pm, baby said she was waiting for her dad who usually knocks off at 11pm. Her mum goes to work everyday at about 7pm. Which means to say, between 7pm to 11pm, she was left alone. She couldn't stay at hm as nobody can look after her. Actually Baby and her brother are 'problem' children as in both have IQ level below the norm. They can't behave and have short attention span. This is an illness, not understood by the public, coupled with bad family upbringing, ppl just shun them. No kids want to play with her. Baby's father has drinking buddies in the market - what's going to happen to baby if she keeps hanging around with them in the market?! Baby is a girl!

Faith's mum, being neighbour, had used to babysit baby. Baby was still within control and discipline the times she was in Faith's family. One wonders what the message of God was when Faith's mum was 'taken away', Faith's family moved and baby was left behind - astrayed.

What can Faith really do to help baby? Faith will always remember the look of baby when they parted just now - fear. While Faith was heading to take a cab, briefly telling J abt baby, Faith held back her tears but still Faith couldn't control as soon as she got on the cab...

Don't ever EVER give birth to children if you don't have the HEART and the capacity to take care of them. DON'T.. pls don't... pls... pls..

你问在我心中　是否还苦恼
那次受伤　否决了爱的好
谢谢你的关照　我一切都好
一个人　不算困扰
爱虽然很美妙　却不能为了寂寞　又陷了泥沼
爱要耐心等待　仔细寻找　感觉很重要
宁可空白了手　等候一次　真心的拥抱
我相信在(这个)世界上　一定会遇到
对的人出现(在眼角)
那次流过的泪　让我学习到
如何祝福　如何转身　不要
在眼泪体会到　与自己拥抱
爱不是一种需要　是一种对照
能愿意为了一份爱　付出去多少
然后得到多少并不计较
当我想清楚的时候　我就算已经准备好
放手去爱　海阔天高
喔... 耶...

Juz came back from a late night supper with genie & joline - it's 3 of us again =) Hope the Macau trip will materialize; want a break overseas, away from s'pore, away from the usuals - juz want to do nthg. Am reading the 'Wild Swans'; as usual took mths to read that, am into the last 2 chaps, only have the opportunity to read during train rides to work.. but sometimes juz wilfully want to sleep and day dream on board. Actually wana ask u guys - what do u do on train/bus rides? sleep? day dream? stare blankly? kpo look around? A customer, knowing that I'm reading 'Wild Swans' went to buy that as well, overriding all the rest in his reading list. As he reads, he will sms me his progress and his feelings. Reading is gd; the expressions are more detailed, making us immersed into the storyline - which is why actual novels always outbeat movies in reviews. I sort of imagined I was living in the communist times, how I will do as a peasant. This novel sets me wondering what inhibited in Mao Zedong's mind, brain and soul so much so my next novel will be 'Mao Zedong's biography'. What a turnoff to you guys right? I know.

Sometimes I am puzzled at why ppl do certain thgs. If I am them, will I behave the same way? I like to think and think why ppl behave in their ways.. My boss commented I am very judgemental, to put it blatantly, it is basically critical. He was saying how I like to fixate my opinion readily onto an issue or person - what YL called it '先入为主'. Boss said I am stubborn with thinking like a block of wood. An old woman living in a young lady's body. this is a curse... haha.

I'm here to fulfil my social obligation haha to my avid readers =) Well, for the most recent part, yesterday went to watch Vantage Point. It's actually not bad but personal opinion is the scenes repeated too many times to reflect the actual happenings from different perspectives. It will sort of bore an audience.. like me. So of coz, the guys didn't like it and complained. Usual line to EK "Aiya told u already watch 'blahblahblah' u keh kiang went to buy this movie tix, aiya always like that one, make mistake'! Poor EK! So after this we adjourned to Law's plc to nua. Forced him to go and buy soya bean and 'you tiao' heh heh while we waited for him at hm. He can really open a DVD rental shop. He has hundreds of DVDs and he segregated them into different genres in different folders. He has the intention to draw up a borrowing list coz he can no longer keep track of his DVDs. Worst still, he has friends who borrow but never return haha. Wanted to watch Troy but Law insisted the movie was too long as he has an apptm the following morning. He chose a freaking, sucking, boliao movie - "Ladykillers' by Tom Hanks! TMD! He achieved his objective - made us all tired by the movie that we just wanted to go hm right away and sleep, so that he can sleep as well.

Happy + Sad = Everyone

Haha hey guys~ I have some CNY pics to upload coz they were lying in my hp till I got this new laptop hence I can bluetooth. My company actually got fortune god to go to every branch in S'pore and give gold ingots choco or gold coins choco to customers. Damn hilarious right?? X'mas too there was santa claus. This fortune god so cute coz when I asked him for 4-digits, he actually had it! He shook my hand and handed a red packet to me!! So far - no gd news...yet only!

Saw the sunflower pics below? So sweet of YL to have this sunflower sent to my workplace on Yuan Xiao. Yl really kept the promise I must say. Brightened up my day! Thank u!!


























Today I am very frustrated. I know I shouldn't let work affect my mood but indeed it has. I have been servicing this cx for a long time regarding RP. I know she will buy RP but she just procrastinates. I don't want to force her but I will always remind her and reinforce my intention whenever I see her. She gave the excuse she just changed a job hence income unstable so does not want to commit into RP. So everytime she has any queries etc I m her hotline, I'm fine. However, yesterday I discovered she got RP from an agent recently. Her sister who's also my client casually mentioned it. Goodness. Alright I know this is part and parcel of a sales job and what's more - she's not even my tight-knitted friend so to speak but just one of the clients I have, so at the very least she has no obligation to support me...but.. but.. I am quite disappointed and disgruntled to be honest. The last time we met she still has the cheek to say ' you know I really like you, like your service, if I am getting RP, you will def be my first choice - WTF!' Whatever it is, just be frank. Don't conceal, don't hide! Just be honest and say you are not getting from me! Don't give the excuse as to like your income is unstable etc. Don't play me out like a fool. Isn't it worse that I found out? I don't know how to face her in future. Still be polite and act as nthg happened?? Matter of the fact is "If you don't ask your cx to commit immediately, chances are THEY WILL GET FROM SOMEBODY ELSE WHO IS MORE AGGRESSIVE OR DESPERATE!" Aiya I thought RP is a long term committment, better give others a chance to think it through, when they are ready they will find me coz we build it on trust - HELL NO! NO! NO! No! So naive to think it this way! Argh, I feel like dying - the case size is not small leh.

My colleague was quite nice. Yesterday after work, she 'counselled' me. It used to be the other way round haha but unfortunately this week think Im experiencing PMS so she has the 'honour' to talk sense into me =) keke. AHH.. I need to go out to get a breather.

Jesse Tang

Hey guys.. got this from Jesse Tang's website. I tell u - my gd friends - I am sure u guys will agree with these excerpts. Quite interesting.. basically all these are abt my horoscope - Virgo. Seems like virgo ladies quite 'pai mia' (read in hokkien) coz it appears quite frequently in the top 3 positions!

不主動絕對把不到的女生？

第一名：處女女

處女女在感情上是「愛你在心口難開」，即使再怎樣喜歡對方都無法說出來，最糟糕的是她還會裝堅強地說：「沒關係！我一個人也過得很好。」。但往往講這句話的同時，眼睛已經泛淚光了，由於處女女的嘴硬、挑剔再加上個性被動，因此往往到了年紀一大把時，仍然小姑獨處而成了名副其實的「老處女」。

Funny? haaaa..

當哥兒們比當情人好的女生？

第二名：處女女

處女女當哥兒們時是非常講義氣的，跟男生之間也不會因為女生身分而要求特別優待，甚至於男生需要她幫助時，她也會顯出自己女中英豪的本色。可是一旦成為情人，之前凡事相挺的她卻變成凡事反對的反對黨，經過重重試驗的另一半有時候會覺得處女女實在機車到不行。

遇到感情難題會不堪一擊的女生？

第一名：處女女

處女女先天下之憂而優，後天下之樂而樂，問題還沒發生，她就先煩惱了。例如兩人在一起時正甜蜜，她就開始煩惱對方以後劈腿怎麼辦？不但自己憂慮，還會去詢問別人意見，把問題丟給別人。事實上她所煩惱的問題可能一輩子都不會發生，可是她就會不斷煩惱，容易緊張感情失去的她，任何風吹草動蛛絲馬跡都會讓她擔憂。

感情上最晚熟的女生？

第一名：處女女

處女女很怕感情受傷害，寧可在自己世界裡想像，覺得想像比較美，永遠只會在腦袋裡，幻想有個白馬王子來拯救她這個公主。問題是她的高塔建立在海洋的中央，除非主動出擊建立自己的人際關係，否則人家根本就無法發現她，感情成熟度等於零。

被另一半牽著鼻子走的女生？

第一名：處女女

處女女是典型的嫁雞隨雞、嫁狗隨狗，許多處女女是非常宿命觀，而且很容易把另一半寵壞，所以讓對方牽著鼻子走是一定的。

以結婚為前提的星座組合？

第三名：金牛男 VS. 處女女

金牛男跟處女女這一組是屬於心靈物質都會彼此幫助的，金牛男要挑選的對象是一生一世的伴侶，處女女則是屬於小鳥依人型，金牛男的大男人主義會給她帶來安全感。這一組在交往時絕對是以結婚為前提，步向紅毯另一端的機會非常高。

Any Taurus guys?? Apr 20 to May 20

Ferris Wheel...

I find ferris wheel an iconic structure of romance. It is an association I find hard to explain. Ferris wheel is meant for people in love and not to hold meetings or parties. Whenever I pass by our one and only magnificent ferris wheel, I will just look at it till it's out of my sight especially at night. The lightings are just beautiful.

The first ferris wheel was designed by George W. Ferris, a bridge-builder from Pittsburgh, Pennsylvania. He built the Ferris Wheel for the 1893 World's Fair, which was held in Chicago to commemorate the 400th anniversary of Columbus's landing in America. He had an inspiration and scribbled the design for the Ferris Wheel on a napkin during a dinner.

So far I have only sat in one which is in Taiwan at Miramar Shopping Centre. I told myself I definitely have to try that coz it was also featured in 'Huan Huan Ai' =) Just that the feel is quite different coz I was with a big grp - I've said ferris wheel is meant for romance. This is the only 'Yi Han' haha. Anyway I still have many more opportunities I hope, like The London Eye - it used to be the biggest ferris wheel until S'pore and China surpassed it.

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Side track a bit.. Cat has just done up my DS Lite. I have many new wallpapers to choose from and new games to play now. It's really getting more and more fun. I must say this ger is gd! I think wait till I get a card reader, I can start customising and adding more stuff again!

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Just watched Lydia Sum TV tribute on Ch 53. Rather touching with many gd friends sending their condolences. The classic part came when Lydia's gd friend (Deng Guang Rong) challenged her ex-husband why wasn't he present to help Joyce with the funeral etc RIGHT ON STAGE AND NATIONAL TV! The whole hall was shocked! Good thing Joyce was calm and brought the unpleasantness and awkwardness back to the theme of the event which was to pay tribute and not to point fingers at whoever's wrongdoing etc. The whole hall clapped to show their support. I guess this is a family affair which should be settled behind closed doors and not on national tv to satisfy nosyparker's curiosity like me (or like us). This ain't Edison's scandalous obscenity but an artiste's demise. Flashes of Lydia and Joyce's past happiness show how great a mother's great love is. What a pity indeed but who can ever question God's timing?
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Good or bad, the show must go on - 'it ain't over till the fat lady sings'.