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there was once faith did try too hard
tried a million, trillion, zillion ways
tried the woman with the crystal ball
tried the man with the tiger teeth idol
tried the idol with the key to hades
foolishly, desperately
wishing for a miracle to happen
once, a miracle was never not easy
and she wilfully thought that will always be
only to find the biggest try in life

plays are not orchestrated by a single soul
as there's a mightier pair of hands up there
yet who ever gave them the right to steal
who ever gave them the right to snatch
who ever gave them the right to break her heart

yet now ppl asked why her heart is so disguised
sometimes she thought there's nothing left to try
resignation makes her cope better, this i sure despise

they said there's light at the end of tunnel
i bet she is now in the longest train ride
alone, scaring her wits out
some said she must have bought the wrong train ticket
but the sender came and said to her
"the ticket was given by that mighty pair of hands"

《妈妈别哭》

妈妈别哭，我现在已没有痛苦
不用再看我，你一辈子也会记住
地震来得那么唐突
没有什么可以遮护
幸存的同学真让人羡慕
那一刻，求生的愿望强烈却茫然无助

妈妈别哭，我不能陪你走今后的路
这么多人陪我我不会孤独
却担心你悲痛地泪流如注
我多么希望你能幸福
我多想长大了孝敬父母
我真的不想早走这一步

妈妈别哭，地震是大地在发怒
也许是它一时糊涂
才伤害了这么多无辜
我只是不幸中的一卒
还有更多的人惨不忍睹
泪水掀不起压我的混凝土

妈妈别哭，别再抱着我幼小的身躯
我已没有往日的温度
呼吸和心跳已经止住
请给我换上爱穿的衣服，拿来我爱读的书
假如天堂里还有学府
我会在梦中告诉你考试的分数

妈妈别哭，天灾人祸是对圣灵的荼毒
你柔弱的身躯无法挡住
只要妈妈你还活着
就是上天对我们的眷顾

因为有你
每年清明那小坟上，会多一锹土

children knocking on heaven's door..



look at this kid holding a pencil in her hands







parents cleaning the bodies up, changing the clothes..




a blessed star..

“my loving baby, if you can survive, please remember I always love you.” mother died; leaving this msg in her hp.. baby was asleep when found - under the protection of his dead mother's body.





fairness does not govern life. this i know as i see more and more of the world second by second. i pray that YOU take them all. i'm sure. heaven will have even more laughter.

- meeting at 830am tml
++ can't; have driving in the morning, sorry to inform u nw
(hp rang; didn't pick up)
- pls call me
(called back 1hr later)
- u..hv driving tml morn
++ yup; just need 1,2 hrs in the morn
- did u apply for leave?
++ no
- and? so u want me to give u time off?
++ will backdate & apply leave tml
- u know im quite lenient towards u guys..
++ yah ok, will apply tml..for 2hrs..
(silence for 5secs)
++ anyway my driving ends at 10am; wouldn't be too late
- yah the usual time that you always come in
(freaking pissed)
++ i don't usually come in at 10am~ the most is 9plus
- yah, usually..
++ yah!! ok, anyway i'll end at 10am
- ok, so i see you at 10 tml
++ 10plus lah, my stuff ends at 10am, i need time to travel back right??!
- yah..gd luck, pass and get it out of your way
++ ok, bye!


thanks to stickgal who taught me a picture speaks a thousand words.

for victims like me, cher..
yesterday i wondered if it was my hallucination, i thought i saw this creepy idiot crawling suspiciously from behind my door to the tv set. for the next 1hr, my eye balls were straining between the laptop and the tv set. so tiring. finally i prayed myself to sleep that it won't fly onto my face - that's the only part not covered by blanket. grr... =(


http://stickgal.blogspot.com/

juz came back celebrating ooi's bday. she's older nw and with hair like hay waahaa =P anyway as usual were busy updating ourselves with the latest gossips or shows. they are the true showbiz gossipers and tv addicts. anyway dunno what i was eating at lau pa sat juz nw, should have settled with 'mee hoon kuay'. the satays n wings looked and tasted horrid. the only consistent taste and is tasty is coke. i was starting to feel hungry already at tcc. think there's bugs in my stomach, keep feeling hungry. yest was at powerhouse and halfway thru, i ordered wings. bet we were the only ones eating in the discotheque. aft that i still had craving for beef noodles. finally abt 4am went chinatown for porrige aft my ceaseless bugging. don't like gg chiong already coz honestly speaking i feel fat. coz u won't feel gd dancing haa. that's why i turned down sor initially. then she suggested i go there and be '大伯公' so i agreed coz can listen to songs la. since i graduated, i've been putting on 1kg/yr, i'm not joking. so yr by yr, i've lost interest in chionging. coincidentally, there was one really fat girl dancing and enjoying away at the next table'; cat pointed out to me. so i 'hmmmmmm....ok' haaa. so i enjoyed myself eventually =) a test was conducted to see if virgos will have 艷遇 - true for sor la. coz 异族同包 is out; not counted - right, yl? yah, i refrained from drinking much coz the smell from new asia bar incident still lingers in my taste bugs. don't wana die yet. it was a girls' night out; cat's frens asked her if we are lesbians. kaoz! enjoy the pics!

somebody thought she's a model =)
















my 2nd trademark.
somebody acting sweet =)
heh heh.

found this 'interesting' page whilst net surfing. kinda amused by hw ppl can actually create such inverted moralities haa. fyi - lucifer is associated with satan, ya.

Lucifer's Ten Commandments

1. If thou art strong, bully the weak.
2. If thou art weak, chastise the strong.
3. Covet thy neighbour's possessions.
4. When vocabulary will not suffice, swear.
5. Be wary and abusive to those who differ from thyself.
6. If thou hast strong beliefs, proselytize.
7. Be a hypocrite, for then thy true self is hidden.
8. Speak, do not listen, for the world is thy stage.
9. Ravage the Earth, for it is infinite in resource.
10. Accumulate wealth, for it commands respect and envy.

just read 'wanbao' and 'sin ming'. i'm affected. the pg showing a 3-yr old girl being rescued touched my heart. she was protected under the bodies of her dead parents. feel like crying looking at their plights. as reported, one victim shouted "i don't want money, don't want hse, don't want anythg at all, juz give me back my 2 children." so many children were buried/crushed alive. a rescuer cried and begged his superior to allow him back into the site of the collapsed school even after a warning that a post-earthquake shake might happen. his wish is to 'just save one more life'! i'm moved but i don't wish it to be under this context! i'm marking this disaster down; adding one more qn in my list of 'Qns for God'. guess i will be very busy in heaven next time... so, don't jio me for mahjong k!

**fyi - if u want to make donations to these victims, can actually do so via dbs internet banking.

it's almost 2am. i'm still awake coz am juz done sorting my new nephew's pics - BOLIAO right? haha. anyway, went parkway catch up with S juz nw. were chit-chatting abt us being front-liner staff meeting all sorts of ppl. i remember one of my CSRs telling me there was once she was handling multiple transactions for a cx over the counter. as she was working, the man suddenly said to her in a matter-of-factly tone, "you know, next time i will surely ask my daughter to study hard, i won't want her to be like you." that man ought to be ashamed of himself! i will tell my daughter this is an example of a horrible insult to someone doing her job. i equate him to a cockroach.

S, F&B asst. mgr, shared this incident. a couple complained one of her staff was not serving them in a prompt manner and his service was lousy. S explained that some of the staffs were students working on a PT basis hence the inconsistent service. S apologised for it. the wife went on "oh they are students still. where are they from?" S replied "they are poly students". husband and wife continued "oh no wonder" *eyes rolling*. later on the husband left behind his namecard - 'Head of ** Dept - our national university'. what a shame. I equate him to a house lizard and her, cockroach.

realize it's usually the tellers, waitresses/waiters, telephone operators, customer service officers and the like getting the crap? i guess it is human being's inclination to feel superior over this set of workers. belittling others to boost one's own ego. there is such tendency present. kind of like 'they wait on us' attitude; they gotta serve us NOW! i pray i'm not gonna be like lizards or cockroaches who shout at the top of their voice in public - "what kind of service is this?!! i want to see your mgr!" sounds familiar? i'm sure at one point or another, we did this before.

look at hw a person can deteriorate and age.. argh!

THEN

















my first br in uob. taken in 2006 june i think..

NOW


taken last week; exactly 2 yrs later. can see the difference right? then, i looked brighter and more radiant. now, i look tired and de-spirited. those working as PB or RM - go and compare ur pics taken 2yrs ago and nw, i'm sure u'll share the same sentiments as me. c'mon do it nw!

found some boliao br pics in my cell so thought of uploading them to spice up my blog since it's been a while i done so. furthermore, i've nthg interesting to blog abt haha. enjoy.




this has always been my aspiration - to be a policewoman. seriously not a cisco lah.



see i was working on a sudoku.



this pose is my trademark, i've noticed.

















my colleague used her cell to shoot me; said that her new cell has my pics more than her own. haha.

















at zouk after bbq.



spot my HFMD. scared the shit out of me.

ever heard of 'the butterfly effect'? like a butterfly flapping its wings in Brazil can set off a tornado in Texas. is like a chaotic effect created by something seemingly insignificant; the phenomenon whereby a small change in one part of a complex system can have a large effect somewhere else.

what am i getting at? like how Johnathan meet Sara in Serendipity. went to the same mall buying gloves. became a fortunate accident. resulted in an ever-after romance. c'mon! it's just an act of buying gloves! get what i mean?

for instance, i want to avoid a cockroach, bumped into a passerby, caused her to fall, knocked her head on the ground, landed her in paralysis, made her die a bitter death. children orphaned.

why am i bringing this up? lately, i've been thinking alot abt the impossibles. like changing history. i even wish foolishly that time will travel back 10yrs so i can remake history. the many 'if only' starts appearing.. as God forbids, time is a forward. applying the theory of 'the butterfly effect', assuming i made good a mistake of the past, even though my intentions are good, it might lead to another unintended consequence. only God knows what.

to be honest, i always admire bloggers who dare to blog abt their deepest inner thoughts in their personal lives. i'm just done with a close friend's blog - she smsed me to check it out. she's the last person that i thought will start a blog and when i read it just nw, i was touched. she was very candid abt her lives. somethg which i can never pluck up the courage to do. perhaps im very insecure. im afraid ppl will know the 'real' me. im nt saying im a 'faked' but rather there's more to me than meets the eye. up till nw, there's only one person that has seen me cry before and that's law. crying seems like a weakling act to me. somethg too vulnerable already. somethg too personal. law is a scary person. one action, one comment, one reaction - he reads me like a book. i won't even bother to conceal just abt anythg from him. my life is like a 'page x' to him.

coming back to S - the new blogger. on the surface, she's like detached from the world. she goes to the movies alone, dines alone, shops alone on her off days. sounds elusive isn't it? laughter is like a punishment to her and sorrow is her antidote. though from another perspective, she is very comfortable being alone with herself. hw many of u can do it?

i'm glad my life is surrounded with different personalities. i'm glad my friends are not of shallow breed. i'm glad when i need genuine advices and help, i know who to turn to.